What I Ate Wednesday: The Perfect Body and Fear of Food


Happy Wednesday folks.  I was seriously MIA over the holidays and want to jump back in with a full day of eats.


Goofing off in South Beach during a 2 day trip to Miami when home in Florida for the holidays.

I seriously missed blogging, journaling my thoughts, and all of you!  This blog helps me just as much as I hope to help others.  I think by telling my story, I hope I can inspire others to live a full life.  A full life to me means having goals, working hard, working out hard, and investing in yourself NOT because you want a perfect body, but because you are WORTH it.  Because strength and growth in the gym and kitchen can translate into strength and confidence in other areas of your life.


breakfast//old-fashioned oats cooked in water, mixed in 1/2 scoop vanilla MTS whey after cooking and then topped with 1/4 of a banana, 1-2 T pumpkin puree, plain Fage greek yogurt, 1 tablespoon coconut butter and 1 tablespoon 365 peanut butter. OH and SPRINKLES.

And gaining confidence and balance in food choices can empower you.  Empower you to realize working for a perfect body will not get you where you want to be.


lunch//4 oz tilapia with my favorite Chef Paul “Magic” salmon seasoning with dill and fennel seeds, broccoli slaw, and fresh grape tomatoes. Un-pictured brown rice cake with Earth Balance coconut peanut butter.

Don’t destroy your body for a peace of mind.  If you are trying to lose weight to finally accept yourself, you are doing it wrong.  Because you might never get that peace of mind.  Be happy with your body at the stage it is now.  Work on your inner self, your confidence, your strength.



pre-workout meal// 1 cup Fage 0% greek yogurt, 1 serving Special K cereal, 70 grams blueberries

It’s a shame to be scared of food.  I used to fear eating around my workouts because I didn’t want to be bloated in the gym.  THAT WAS SO STUPID.  Eating around your workouts is so crucial to gaining muscle, leaning out, “toning up” (not a real thing, you need to build muscle to tone up), etc etc.  I always aim to have a good serving of carbohydrates and protein around my workouts.  I had read this for YEARS but somehow thought it didn’t apply to me because I had a “slow metabolism”. Well, HI DEANNA, you’re metabolism is ridiculous and food is there to fuel you, not be feared.  The more you fear food, the more control you give it over your life and the more you are likely to restrict and binge, overeat, or emotionally eat which are the exact patterns I have pulled myself out of with my flexible eating now.


post-workout dinner//fish tacos made with already prepared garlic tilapia, 3 Mission Extra Thin Corn tortillas, cabbage slaw made from broccoli slaw and Bragg’s apple cider vinegar (LOVED this crunch), fresh salsa from the fridge area (not jarred), and a side of broccoli roasted in coconut oil topped with nutritional yeast and a heavy dose of Cholula after the photo.


bedtime meal//chocolate protein lava cake (or a beltsander brownie from Instagram, eaten on the regular) made with 1 scoop chocolate whey protein, 2 tablespoons cocoa powder, 1 tsp baking powder, 1/4 cup unsweetened almond milk and microwaved for 30 seconds. Topped with Sunspire dark chocolate chips and 1 tablespoon Whole Foods Brand 365 peanut butter. Un-pictured was 2 Oreo’s dipped in another tablespoon of peanut butter because I knew I hadn’t eaten enough carbs and fat today.

To overcome fear foods, you must face your fears.  I ate 2 Oreo’s daily over the past 2 weeks. Most people would call me unhealthy. Most dietitians would point out the trans fats. Most ‘nutritionists’ would say you need to cut out gluten to eat optimally.  Those 2 Oreo’s along with all the other foods I ate over the holidays while maintaining my weight and size make me realize ALL foods really can fit.  No more clean eating for me.  No more cutting out food groups.  No more restricting.  Food is meant as fuel, not to be feared.  And the more you can gain strength and power in your food choices and what you put in your body, the more you will realize how amazing your body is. And that it doesn’t need to be “perfect”.